Testing a new route

Trying out a new routine, just to see if it helps me establish some habits that I keep wanting to reinstate in my life, only to fail time and again.

My main weakness is simply that of my own. The lack of self-discipline and will, to do what I need to, and not just give in to all manners of senseless distractions that deliver no value whatsoever. 

So rather than trying to leap straight to a disciplined routine, I decided that what I need might just be to put myself in a situation where I am much less likely to be distracted. 

If I can't get to my destination via this same route that I keep taking and wandering from, then perhaps this roundabout, apparently less efficient one might work. Getting there using more time and effort is better than just not getting there at all, no?

So here I am, sitting at a coffeehouse, plugged into my earphones and drafting my first blogpost in five months. 

It feels good. It feels hopeful. Let's hope it sticks. 

I may have to finally stop judging people who sit at cafes with their laptops. And acknowledge they are the true wise ones who knew better all along. 

mindless rant

Why, hello there strangers. :)


Where have I been? What have I been doing, or not doing? What are my grand plans for this year?


I've really ran out of words or excuses now. Just, life. Work. Random adulting stuff.


Each day is about getting by, one day at a time, hopefully with more items struck off my to do list than new ones piled on. With (even more) hopefully, minimal distractions and procrastination.


Rinse, repeat.


Breathe.


This daily grind takes the energy out of me, more mental than physical most days. And the flesh, is as weak as the spirit, so most evenings we all curl up on the couch or bed, refusing to think or do anything constructive.


UGH. It's no way to live, and I know I need to snap out of it.


Baby steps, it takes. I know.


Slowly, surely, I will reclaim my life, one teeny minute and mini-goal at a time.


Starting with this post. 😁

Adulting is hard

so says this woman (me) who has been legally one for some 1.5 decades. Face palm much?


What can I say - have been spared the full slew of responsible lifestyle choices, huge purchases and mortgages, till now, and with work often being at full load, breakneck speed, I can't help feeling a tad overwhelmed at times.


Bleah. Well, in the grand scheme of things, it's all really exciting and I do find it fun most of the time, except in certain moments when it all just feels a bit much.


So like the responsible mature adult I am, I suck it up and conjure a whingey post here, like the princess I am.


Still don't feel like an adult, oof.

My favourite rude English words

I was originally going to title this post as "My favourite English words", and write about those funny words that I just love reading, or saying. They are so apt and conjure up such hilarious imagery, that they never fail to crack me up in those instances.

And then as I started making a list of these words, I realised that the majority of them are just perfect for scolding people who annoy, irritate or disgust you (or rather, me), depending on the context or the character deformity.

Oops. 

Oh well, I did already proclaim that I is not a "nice" person, eh?

At least I never call them these names out loud - these are just unwitting adjectives that float into my consciousness when interacting with such beings, and they really serve three fantastic purposes - firstly, my slightly OCD brain can have a proper label for the offending personnel, and therefore, it helps to somewhat mollify the angst or ire they induced, from the satisfaction of a perfect label (that's the second purpose). Finally, and perhaps most importantly, these auto-reflexes often keep me from imploding at said nuisances, and help re-calibrate my emotional equilibrium.

Who knew that a good vocabulary can offer such utility?

Anyway, here are those famed favourites, in alphabetical order. Feel free to share yours too, I would love to know (and possibly add to the repertoire)! FYI the last one is my absolute fave. Hahaha.

Heh, while I think most of these are pretty self-explanatory, I thought it might be helpful (and fun!) to look up the definitions on my favourite dictionary these days, the Merriam Webster.

Ass-wipe: vulgar slang -  a stupid, annoying, or detestable person. (Plural: asswipes)
Buffoon: a gross and usually ill-educated or stupid person 
Douchebag: an unattractive or offensive person 
Lowlife:  a person of low moral character
Ludicrous:  amusing or laughable through obvious absurdity, incongruity, exaggeration, or eccentricity
Nincompoop: fool, simpleton (related form: nincompoopery)
Numbskull: a thick or muddled head

Going through this list, I laughed but shuddered at how it shows the frequency I meet such persons that these words actually come readily to mind.